everything beautiful dies so i kiss it goodbye

nicremnev @ 2004-08-18T19:14:00

2004-08-18T23:15:03Z

ok forget themes, my songs are going to be about everything. aggression , hate , happiness, all the good stuff. sadly most of my songs are going to be about love. they are easiest to write so yeah........expect lyrics all the time now. i will use the good ones and trash the bad ones (duh)!

xoxo

nicremnev @ 2004-08-18T18:45:00

2004-08-18T22:46:06Z

omg since August 14, i havent eaten any meat chicken or fish. i am trying to become a 100% vegeterian. not really for health reason. i just dont want to eat animals anymore. i think everyone should read the book Diet For New America. it is an awesome book, and has help spread awarness of what really happens to poor animals. omg i feel so bad for them. i think people should pick it up.
xoxo

nicremnev @ 2004-08-11T23:31:00

2004-08-12T03:48:40Z

ok i am releasing one song right now
this is for the LOVE album
so go easy bitches

"Hard For Me To Breath With My Heart In Your Hands"
her eyes are burning holes in me
slowly
nostalgia
fighting to stay alive
without my heart
she has it
in her grasp
does she know the power
she conceals?
i know what it is to love
my heart is yours
take care of it please

nicremnev @ 2004-08-08T22:39:00

2004-08-09T02:42:45Z

ok well i am cool so i already have 3 albums planned out.
the first album is going to be all about love . becuase thats all im feeling right now in my life.
the second album is going to be all about heartbreak, because it is truly my worst fear and i think that is what comes after love
the third album is basically about hate. think this , you feel in love, broke your heart, now you get revenge.

ok well the first album is going to be commplete soon . i am working on lyrics now!

nicremnev @ 2004-08-05T09:59:00

2004-08-05T14:01:22Z

new lyrics on theyre way. very excited about this. probably going to be releasing all of the new lyrics in the end at once instead of over time. i dont know. we will have to see what happens ...=)

nicremnev @ 2004-08-03T00:07:00

2004-08-03T04:07:20Z

NIC IS FUCKING GAY.

<3always,
ghettofabkrock

HI NIC'S FRIENDS!!

2004-08-02T23:37:32Z

HI! It's Josh. I just made Nic's livejournal pimp.
So, yeah. That's it.

-bottomcrash/Josh

nicremnev @ 2004-08-01T13:12:00

2004-08-01T17:13:46Z

i am reworking lyrics and making new for the album.. i dont know i want to keep a theme for it and i feel like i went off track while writing some of these lyrics so yeah....more soon
nic

nicremnev @ 2004-07-29T22:43:00

2004-07-30T02:50:20Z

the lies are hard to spread thin
but its so easy to control
weakness is your savior
when theres nothing left to save
family tradition
passed on in fear
unconditional love
for a fucking stranger
nails
driven in me
for i have sinned

nicremnev @ 2004-07-28T20:10:00

2004-07-29T00:12:15Z

omg i just made my own recording of pulchritudinous that i showed to kim . she said it was cool. i love it and i want to show others. it is me playing guitar then recording my voice over. i think it sounds clear nice and i feel good about it too. biach! i am definitly making more of these tonight or tomorrow =)!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALBUM: EYE FOR AN EYE, HEART FOR A HEART

2004-07-22T22:44:28Z

HERE IS THE LYRICS TO the album...doing reworking

"I Owe This To You"
as time dies
we fall apart
some say
it just didnt work
but they
dont know the
part of you
i saw
as you lay here
bleeding
i cant help but cry
reflecting on theses actions
now its time to die
i didnt mean too
you fell on the knife....
breaking apart this relationship
sealing the deal
with this blade
you will learn to not
fuck with me
and my heart
all thought i cut open your neck
you cut open my heart
you drew a happy face in blood
next to the "im sorry"
you will pay for this

"Pathological Liars Diary"
you told me you loved me
how do you sleep at nite?
everything is not turning out the way
you thought it would
when the lies catch up to you
how could you lie about
"loving" me?
i always thought you
were fake
but you bring new meaning
to the term
i know now that
the world is opposite
you "loved" me(WHY?)
if so then i "hate" you
still
why do you "love" me?

"Signed Mr. I Love You"
dear mrs im to perfect
those wings dont suite you well
dear mrs suicide christ
wont you save me from this hell
i need this salvation
to help
set me free
wont you
come
and slit my
wrist for me?
(chrus)
swallowing this poison
known only as lies
inflicting self loathing
if you want redemption
just let me die
----
ill swallow my pride
if you help me
swallow
these
pills
i know just
what your thinking
and yes
love
does
kill
(chorus)
i
still
want
my
masterpiece
with wrists ran red
goodnight pills in excess
a plastic bag mask
car running
door down
ill fail my
heart
this
time
if i need help
ill
scream
your
name.

"If There Was A Metal For Breaking Hearts, Youd Get The Gold"
her eyes bleed with sorrow
breaking hearts has never been easier
one would think she was a pro
too bad those tears were only faux
too bad your so beautiful
that pretty face
has to goto waste
as i smash it in
with my fist
you are so brave
sticking with me till the end
i will remember that when im killing ou
dont worry
too much
it shouldnt hurt
that much
prepare too die
feeling free to kill you
prepare to get
your wings
they have been
waiting for you
next to your halo

"My Mallets The Groom, You May Kiss The Bride"
for the last time
you inhale
ive done my choking
now exhale
your mouth doesnt deserve
to spit my name
------
(chorus)
hurts when there is
no surface to rise to
hurts when you realise
this rock cant hang
for long over your head
------
kiss like poison
you sob
one more for tomoorrow
now learn
that i can be as brutal as you
------
(chorus)
------
especially when im
gripping the rock
GO
i
have
become
what you made me
this monster
this hate
this fear i taste
i am reborn
i am renewed
and have a vengence
------
(chorus)
------
you
hate
what
ive
become
i
embrace
this
shadow
and smirk(x3)
taste
this
mallet
"The Only Thing Perfect"
you are so perfect
you always managed
to make me smile
its funny how
things work out
if you try
if you
try
my life has
changed completely
because of
you
i hope you
understand
and you feel the same
you are everything
and more
you are everything to me
you have my heart
forever
till it is broken
forever

"Remove,Remake, and Reroute"
nothing can fix
broken hearts
except the ones
who carry the hammers
they are the ones
who smash hearts
to pieces
dont you have
a heart
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
breaking
breaking
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
bury the 'love you's
so they turn to ash
turn to ash
change everything that reminds
you of me
that reminds you of me
claw at my eyes
till i am blind
so i cannot see you
coming with that
knife
burn all my pictures
to destroy the memories
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
breaking
breaking
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
there wont be a next time
there wont be a next time
there wont be a next time
there wont be a next time

"Pulchritudinous"
she swings slowly
she is so
beautiful
tomorrow will always be better
if shes there with me
if shes there with me
gorgeous she is
with that glow
lights up and it shines
shining slowly
shining
shining slowly
forgiving would be so easy
nothing matters anymore
except her
for everything in the world
i would give
to be with her tomorrow
nothing could go wrong
with perfection
with
perfection
nothing beautiful fades
nothing beautiful fades
nothing beautiful fades
nothing
beautiful
can
fade

"My Object Cartharsis"
Vertical Rays wake me
Sitting up i enter my dream
The horizon formed beneath the sheets
brings sheer joy to my body
Her beauty can only be rivaled by angels
Her eyes are a blue only the wisest artist could paint
Like a peasent to his Queen i kowtow to her whims
Her venom tongue and sinful hands may scrape
The only organ you can give to one person
Despite these lashings it still pumps
I go to touch
But these cyclinders are not worthy of this feat
Things dont last forever
But
At this moment
The future feels an eternity away
The world has never looked so bright
I owe it all to her
Despite the pain she may cause
In the end, for this moment, I will never let her go

"The Difference Between Wrong and Beautiful"
trying to talk
silence
allows me to bask in emotion
feeling these things
not caring whats wrong
not knowing why
but in the end
knowing whats right
is us
meant to be
finally
ending up
with you and me
knowing whats right
is us
meant to be
finally
ending up with you
and
me

"Perfection"
She draws first blood
Grabbing the nearest rusty hammer
And smashing it into a thousand frail pieces
The wound on his chest is still gaping
He holds hers and notices small cracks from when he dropped it
Or threw it against a wall
Her name brings distaste and sympathy to his ears
From the individuals who consider themselves prophets
In order to survive, the mask you wear must be perfect
She speaks three words only for rot to fill her mouth
Complete silence
Until something shatters the void
The boy lays back
His newest form of medication
Falling from the things that will land him a spot six feet under
Makes the loudest whipser upon his floor
Red has never looked so good on the back of a wall
Crimson lips led him to this
A dark fog eminates from his mouth
Showing Self-Destruct
And as he faces mankinds greatest fear
The only thing going through the last breathing oragan is
"Isnt she perfect?"

nicremnev @ 2004-07-22T18:25:00

2004-07-22T22:35:53Z

her hands so soft
lips so sweet
a match made in heaven
scream about not having
a care in the world
could things get any better?
i would die before you
break a bone
allow pain to only hit me
if it makes you
happy
does this seem too extreme?
you grant all my wishes
every time i open my eyes
(eyes) and you are there
i love every part of you
i cant help but be
so in
SO IN LOVE WITH YOU
ALL I CAN DO NOW IS DIE
ALL I CAN DO NOW IS DIE
ALL I CAN DO NOW IS DIE
JUST LET ME DIE
with you in my arms

ok next and FINAL SONG FOR OUR ALBUM!!!!
as time dies
we fall apart
some sa
it just didnt work
but they
dont know the
part of you
i saw
as you lay here
bleeding
i cant help but cry
reflecting on theses actions
now its time to die
i didnt mean too
you fell on the knife....
breaking apart this relationship
sealing the deal
with this blade
you will learn to not
fuck with me
and my heart
all thought i cut open your neck
you cut open my heart
you drew a happy face in blood
next to the "im sorry"
you will pay for this

2 new songs

2004-07-22T21:20:27Z

ok here is my new song for the album and ill rwrite justins one after =D!!!

"Pathological Liars Diary"
you told me you loved me
how do you sleep at nite?
everything is not turning out the way
you thought it would
when the lies catch up to you
how could you lie about
"loving" me?
i always thought you
were fake
but you bring new meaning
to the term
i know now that
the world is opposite
you "loved" me(WHY?)
if so then i "hate" you
still
why do you "love" me?

justins song...
"Signed Mr. I Love You"
dear mrs im to perfect
those wings dont suite you well
dear mrs suicide christ
wont you save me from this hell
i need this salvation
to help
set me free
wont you
come
and slit my
wrist for me?
(chrus)
swallowing this poison
known only as lies
inflicting self loathing
if you want redemption
just let me die
----
ill swallow my pride
if you help me
swallow
these
pills
i know just
what your thinking
and yes
love
does
kill
(chorus)
i
still
want
my
masterpiece
with wrists ran red
goodnight pills in excess
a plastic bag mask
car running
door down
ill fail my
heart
this
time
if i need help
ill
scream
your
name.

nicremnev @ 2004-07-21T17:18:00

2004-07-22T00:16:21Z

i am having fun in new york, alex is a bastard 3/4 of the time though...justins at work =/, i am excited to go home and see stephanie and my doggys! i am so lonely =(
her eyes
nothing compares to the beauty
in a world without beaut
she stands alone
cracking smiles
at every joke
giving out the feeling
that i get
around her like air
could things get any better?
eternal bliss
with her
feeling so great
it has never been easy
to be happy
she gives me strength
gets me through
all things wrong
even though
since ive known her
nothings gone wrong.
=)

"If There Was A Metal For Breaking Hearts, Youd Get The Gold"
her eyes bleed with sorrow
breaking hearts has never been easier
one would think she was a pro
too bad those tears were only faux
too bad your so beautiful
that pretty face
has to goto waste
as i smash it in
with my fist
you are so brave
sticking with me till the end
i will remember that when im killing ou
dont worry
too much
it shouldnt hurt
that much
prepare too die
feeling free to kill you
prepare to get
your wings
they have been
waiting for you
next to your halo
=D

justin wrote this last one
"My Mallets The Groom, You May Kiss The Bride"
for the last time
you inhale
ive done my choking
now exhale
your mouth doesnt deserve
to spit my name
------
(chorus)
hurts when there is
no surface to rise to
hurts when you realise
this rock cant hang
for long over your head
------
kiss like poison
you sob
one more for tomoorrow
now learn
that i can be as brutal as you
------
(chorus)
------
especially when im
gripping the rock
GO
i
have
become
what you made me
this monster
this hate
this fear i taste
i am reborn
i am renewed
and have a vengence
------
(chorus)
------
you
hate
what
ive
become
i
embrace
this
shadow

and smirk(x3)
taste
this
mallet
=D!!

nicremnev @ 2004-07-18T14:04:00

2004-07-18T18:05:03Z

1.something at nite
that keeps me awake
about those black tears
that run down your face
about those black tears that rundown
your viscous cheecks
blacker than all things
meaner then all lies
it is what burns
tonight
it is what burns
in the nite
blacker than it seems
its whats in the nite
i look for your
simple screams
its what keeps
me going
its what keeps
me alive
dont let me die in your arms tonight
dont let me die in your arms tonight

2. "Torture For The Soul"
burning out my eyes
with cigarette lighters
taking time like you have
all the time in the world
when the world has you down
just look up
at her
killing me like you have all the time in the world
in the world
tear off my flesh
show me my beauty
love me more
shoot me
whore
tell me you love me
with that razor blade
tell me to fix your broken heart
tell me that you are sorry....
you think your perfect
you are so perfect
killing me
oh so slowly
killing me
never been sweeter
so take your time
take your time
burning out my eyes
with cigarette lighters
taking time like you have
all of the world
3.her eyes shine
burning holes in me slowly
for something that you
can see
but cannot have
i can see the light
sometimes
when i stand
out at nite
in a distance
falling away
from me now
falling away
away
how perfect can things get
how perfect can you be
when your not here
with
me
with me
sometimes
when i stand
out at nite
in
a
distance
falling
falling
falling
(music stops;screaming)
f a l l i n g
falling away
from me now
falling away
away
4."These Hands Covered In Crimson"
the butterflies in my stomach
seize to flutter
and for the first time
my tongue
is as sharp
as the blade
that
serenades
your
throat
oh so pretty crimson
if hate were a liquid
id make sure you drown
inhale this air
can you feel it
inhale this air
one blink and your gone(x2)
your gone
{sound sample: news reporter"And in other news.."}
your so dead to me
like a corpse
i leave them buried
with theyre heart intact
so
give
me
that
previligde
(speaking softly)
your last day
you shut your eyes
is the first day
i begin to smile(x2)
(SCREAMING)
the last day
is the first day
i smile
the last day
is the day
i smile
so shut your eyes(x3)
so let me live my life
(monologue)
you brought this on yourself
its too bad something beautiful
can be so rotten on the inside
but in the end im the one whos beautiful
all the hearts youve broken
all know one thing
(SCREAM)
we know were perfect
5."Prevaricators Promise"
false hope
no hope
you have given
everyone both
thanks
for
nothing
thanks
for
everything(x2)
empty
promises
i turn my back on you
but before i go
give this knife back to you
you want everything your way
dont you?
you thought you'd get away with
everything?
6. [Jul. 9th, 2004|11:58 pm]
[ Current Mood | satisfied ]

new song? =P<----that is dedicated to stephy and kim for all those dam pictures!
"The Only Thing Perfect"
you are so perfect
you always managed
to make me smile
its funny how
things work out
if you try
if you
try
my life has
changed completely
because of
you
i hope you
understand
and you feel the same
you are everything
and more
you are everything to me
you have my heart
forever
till it is broken
forever
7."Remove,Remake, and Reroute"
nothing can fix
broken hearts
except the ones
who carry the hammers
they are the ones
who smash hearts
to pieces
dont you have
a heart
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
breaking
breaking
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
bury the 'love you's
so they turn to ash
turn to ash
change everything that reminds
you of me
that reminds you of me
claw at my eyes
till i am blind
so i cannot see you
coming with that
knife
burn all my pictures
to destroy the memories
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
breaking
breaking
crush your own next time
instead of taking mine
there wont be a next time
there wont be a next time
there wont be a next time
there wont be a next time
8."if Silence Could Save You, id SCREAM"
Smiling
I take the sharpest blow
To the chest
If words were
Knives
They wouldnt be able
To recognize my body
All this time i waited
Took the shortest breaths
In this curtain call (x2)
I dont get to take
My
Bow
You want to cut me
Short
You want to close my
Mouth
But this plague is spreading
I never knew my
Voice could kill you
9."Apathetic At My Funeral"
zealous vigilance
causes me to
hide behind
a
mask
of
apathy
turning back to me
i fall four stories
before i break
i turn into flames
and then remake
when envy has me going
theres no way to be stopped
i am striving on your pain
powered by jealousy
which
causes me to
hide behind
a
mask
of
apathy
a
mask
of
apathy
this problem needs to die
it has to end
this problem must be resolved
if not i will end
i wont live this life anymore
i wont celebrate the past
as these years go by
i sit by and die
i sit by and
watch my self
die
10."For What it's Worth"
i never thought i would
see the day
i didnt care anymore
all this good should
just go away
dont come back
not on better days
when things are at best
things just get worse
your prosperity
was successful
till you poured
your fucking heart out
turn me to things
associated with hate
make all the emotions
make them go away
you poison yourself
against me
im not so bad after all?
when it all comes down to it
i should have just taken
the fall
11. [Jul. 7th, 2004|01:11 am]
[ Current Mood | worried ]

ok some new songs
i am not feeling happy tonight for some reason...=(
"Remorse For Yesterday"
my dreams are of you and me
we are walking
nothing could go, wrong
right now has seen
such better days
we could have been perfect
made for each other
if turning back time
could be so easy
maybe the nite
wouldnt be so lonely
open your eyes
why havent i woken up yet?
i think it is a nightmare
that wont quite
as my reality fades
to a better day
i turn black
like the nite
turn me back
i have stolen your
heart
cut off my hands
give me promises
let them become false
everything
goes
so fucking
wrong
spending days alone again
spending nites alone again
spending time
alone
weak as can be
turn your back on me
weak as can be
eyes burn black
showing me regret
tearing out my heart
12."Pulchritudinous" (N)
she swings slowly
she is so
beautiful
tomorrow will always be better
if shes there with me
if shes there with me
gorgeous she is
with that glow
lights up and it shines
shining slowly
shining
shining slowly
forgiving would be so easy
nothing matters anymore
except her
for everything in the world
i would give
to be with her tomorrow
nothing could go wrong
with perfection
with
perfection
nothing beautiful fades
nothing beautiful fades
nothing beautiful fades
nothing
beautiful
can
fade
13."My Object Cartharsis" (J)
Vertical Rays wake me
Sitting up i enter my dream
The horizon formed beneath the sheets
brings sheer joy to my body
Her beauty can only be rivaled by angels
Her eyes are a blue only the wisest artist could paint
Like a peasent to his Queen i kowtow to her whims
Her venom tongue and sinful hands may scrape
The only organ you can give to one person
Despite these lashings it still pumps
I go to touch
But these cyclinders are not worthy of this feat
Things dont last forever
But
At this moment
The future feels an eternity away
The world has never looked so bright
I owe it all to her
Despite the pain she may cause
In the end, for this moment, I will never let her go
14."Shattered Feelings" (N)
to afraid to walk on your own shadows
your to perfect for your reflection
stealthly walking, plotting your move
knowing the pain
your going to unleash
acting
nothing
is
wrong
your too perfect
i always loved you
but you felt differ
i dont
care anymore
you provocative
bitch
you are not needed anymore
i dont need you anymore
i hate you
you know it too
15."The Fear of Being Hollow" (JOINT)
I smell decomp
From your heart inside
Welcome to my nightmare
Just shut your eyes
What happened to the feeling
The word love hurts like nails
Tears are for the weak
As your heartbeat fails
How big is that void?
Rot cant fill it all
You should stop looking up
I look down when i fall
Fear is simple
But emotions take time
To be corrected
Love and Hate
Make the weak go blind
i deny your strength
to go through with it
i shall rise above
you will fall from this
recollect our past
i simplify your virtue
because i forgot
what its like
(musics continues as it was when singing...)
(no singing just yet)
........
TO LOVE
16."Deception For The Heart" (N)
storming outside
looking for an exit
to this horror story
make me feel better
i am so perfect
compared to you
i never did nothing
you fucked it all
to hell
screaming so softly
muffled and distorted
to me
broken dreams
forgotten feelings
forgeting that you
made me happy
making you think
it could be resolved
it cant
so shut up
you fucking bitch
before i tear
out your heart
like you did to mine
i dont care
i wont care
i cant care
i
care
17."The Difference Between Wrong and Beautiful" (N)
trying to talk
silence
allows me to bask in emotion
feeling these things
not caring whats wrong
not knowing why
but in the end
knowing whats right
is us
meant to be
finally
ending up
with you and me
knowing whats right
is us
meant to be
finally
ending up with you
and
me
18."Smoking Cigarettes and Burning my Memories" (J)
I feel so splintered
You made me cold
Hard to stab my back
Waearing a blindfold
If you want me dead
Just do it fast
Ill rip your heart
From your ass
still beating (soft voice)........STILL BEATING! (screaming)
You've killed me
For the Last time
Dial tones wont
Distort my mind
: And as i take the last drag
Of this burnt cigarette
The flames flicker
Like the heartbeat
Of a loved one lost
And soon
We've switched places
And im the one
Holding the gun in my hand
Aimed at your heart
And smiling
Enjoying this itchy trigger finger
19."Letting My Fingers Slip" (N)
pouring your heart out
i wish i could sew
but i cant
your out of luck
imperfect
feeling like i could
but i cant
its over
time isnt left to say your sorry
relax
its done
i have taken your
peace of mind
and thrown it
out the window
say goodbye
20."Loves Last Twilight" (N)
tonight is perfect
there is no regrets
the time has come
the blood will be shed
i have no feelings at this point
the option of looking back
has been crossed off the board
i look for you
to catch my eye
i look to the left
(whispers)i see YOU
no its time to die
this moment is right
i will savor it to the very last drop
watch
as i
peel the
flesh off your face and turn it around
the mask you can wear can
taste so sweet
looking so good
forever and ever
tastes so sweet
looking so good
taste you forever
in my mouth
as tragic it seems
i have to say goodbye and goodnight
in the nite
goodbye
goodnight
goodbye
goodnight
21."so easy" (N)
as the sky
turns black
i never look back
tomorrow has never looked so good to me
the way you screamed
i had to adore you
the way you cried
i couldnt ignore you(x2)
the begging didnt stop
until the final blow
covered in a sheet of crimson
from fist to fist
i break away first
but now i know
theres no looking back
22.."A Love Once Lost" (N)
a love once lost
is never again
happy or true to you
never again
looking at you
with those eyes
brown never looked so good
it never looked like lies
but lost forever
the lies caught up
a passion for another
would make it all end
and end it did
without any ceremony
what is left to say
except
no one fucking cared
23."Perfection" (J)
She draws first blood
Grabbing the nearest rusty hammer
And smashing it into a thousand frail pieces
The wound on his chest is still gaping
He holds hers and notices small cracks from when he dropped it
Or threw it against a wall
Her name brings distaste and sympathy to his ears
From the individuals who consider themselves prophets
In order to survive, the mask you wear must be perfect
She speaks three words only for rot to fill her mouth
Complete silence
Until something shatters the void
The boy lays back
His newest form of medication
Falling from the things that will land him a spot six feet under
Makes the loudest whipser upon his floor
Red has never looked so good on the back of a wall
Crimson lips led him to this
A dark fog eminates from his mouth
Showing Self-Destruct
And as he faces mankinds greatest fear
The only thing going through the last breathing oragan is
"Isnt she perfect?"

new songs

2004-07-18T17:48:17Z

well i am most likely going to be able to record like maybe 2 or 3 songs up here in niagra and burn them on a cd to bring home and show to friends. i think i am going to be useing these new ones because i wrote them off the top of my head when Justin Jimi and i were jamming yesterday...so check em out =)

this song has no title yet but i mean , its reallly weird. i like it but it doesnt really have much meaning...or at least to me =/.
no particular order yet.

something at nite
that keeps me awake
about those black tears
that run down your face
about those black tears that rundown
your viscous cheecks
blacker than all things
meaner then all lies
it is what burns
tonight
it is what burns
in the nite
blacker than it seems
its whats in the nite
i look for your
simple screams
its what keeps
me going
its what keeps
me alive
dont let me die in your arms tonight
dont let me die in your arms tonight

ok the other song is called

"Torture For The Soul"
burning out my eyes
with cigarette lighters
taking time like you have
all the time in the world
when the world has you down
just look up
at her
killing me like you have all the time in the world
in the world
tear off my flesh
show me my beauty
love me more
shoot me
whore
tell me you love me
with that razor blade
tell me to fix your broken heart
tell me that you are sorry....
you think your perfect
you are so perfect
killing me
oh so slowly
killing me
never been sweeter
so take your time
take your time
burning out my eyes
with cigarette lighters
taking time like you have
all of the world

nicremnev @ 2004-07-17T15:04:00

2004-07-17T19:55:33Z

new song...havent wrote in a while. needed to update get out some feelings:-)

her eyes shine
burning holes in me slowly
for something that you
can see
but cannot have
i can see the light
sometimes
when i stand
out at nite
in a distance
falling away
from me now
falling away
away
how perfect can things get
how perfect can you be
when your not here
with
me
with me
sometimes
when i stand
out at nite
in
a
distance
falling
falling
falling
(music stops;screaming)
f a l l i n g
falling away
from me now
falling away
away

nicremnev @ 2004-07-14T23:49:00

2004-07-15T03:49:45Z

my life is so fucking perfect xoxo

nicremnev @ 2004-07-13T11:41:00

2004-07-13T18:42:02Z

ok well i am going to new york to see justin this thursday (15th) till the 25th on a sunday. i am fucking excited, we are going to see Remembering Never live together on the 19th and to make everything better i am seeing justin play with this band he joined in New York formaly known as Paradigm Shift now Now Easy Exit. Im excited to see him play. also we get to play and construct songs for A Touch of FUCKING Tragedy.
We will be chilling with our friend Jimi who has some amps to play with justins getting a drumset and Jimi has a mic so i can sing. i know i know sounds like things couldnt get any better right? well they do. First of all today and tomorrow are my last 2 days and florida and i am going to be hanging out with stephy the whole time(I mean come on how fucking awesome is that? I love chilling with steph). and if it couldnt get annnnnyyyy bettttterrr on the 27th i will be back home and Remembering Never will be playing again here!!!! i am so fucking excited to see them twice. AND IF THINGS COULDNT GET ANY FUCKING BETTER I AM GOING TO BE HOME JUST IN TIME TO SEE THE VILLAGE WITH STEPHY AND IT IS GOING TO BE FUCKING AWESOME.EVEN IF IT ISNT SCARY IT WILL BE FUN AS HELL SO YEAH(I AM GOING TO BE OPTIMISTIC AND THINK IT IS GOING TO BE FUCKING SCARY). I WILL PROBABLY UPDATE WHEN I GET TO NEW YORK AND MAYBE EVEN SOME PICTURES! I CANT WAIT.

nicremnev @ 2004-07-12T20:46:00

2004-07-13T00:47:23Z

omg justin, i took a little nap after mowing the lawn today...i had a fucking nightmare about the haunter.omg yes. i think she has resurected and come back. RUN FOR THE HILLS DONT LOOK BACK IT IS COMING THE HAUNTER IS FUCKING REAL

nicremnev @ 2004-07-12T16:16:00

2004-07-12T20:16:13Z

ok justin and i are on the phone
doing a joint session. bitches

"These Hands Covered In Crimson"
the butterflies in my stomach
seize to flutter
and for the first time
my tongue
is as sharp
as the blade
that
serenades
your
throat
oh so pretty crimson
if hate were a liquid
id make sure you drown
inhale this air
can you feel it
inhale this air
one blink and your gone(x2)
your gone
{sound sample: news reporter"And in other news.."}
your so dead to me
like a corpse
i leave them buried
with theyre heart intact
so
give
me
that
previligde
(speaking softly)
your last day
you shut your eyes
is the first day
i begin to smile(x2)
(SCREAMING)
the last day
is the first day
i smile
the last day
is the day
i smile
so shut your eyes(x3)
so let me live my life
(monologue)
you brought this on yourself
its too bad something beautiful
can be so rotten on the inside
but in the end im the one whos beautiful
all the hearts youve broken
all know one thing
(SCREAM)
we know were perfect

nicremnev @ 2004-07-10T17:10:00

2004-07-10T21:37:55Z

"Prevaricators Promise"
false hope
no hope
you have given
everyone both
thanks
for
nothing
thanks
for
everything(x2)
empty
promises
i turn my back on you
but before i go
give this knife back to you
you want everything your way
dont you?
you thought you'd get away with
everything?

removing songs::..=( but keeping good ones =)

2004-07-10T18:25:55Z

ok off the master list (newest version) i am taking off the songs 8,9 and 12...probably going to be editing and remaking 8,9,12 so dont think they are gone forever.
here is a quick name list of all the songs
AToT Songs:
1.The Only Thing Perfect(N)
2.if Silence Could Save You, i'd SCREAM(J)
3.Apathetic At My Funeral(N)
4.For What it's Worth(N)
5.Remorse For Yesterday(N)
6.Pulchritudinous(N)
7.My Object Catharsis(J)
8.Shattered Feelings(N)**new title soon
9.The Fear of Being Hollow(JOINT)
10.The Difference Between Wrong and Beautiful(N)
11.Deception For The Heart(N)***formally a cheaters story
12.Smoking Cigarettes and Burning My Memories(J)
13.So Easy(N)**new title soon
14.Loves Last Twilight(N)
15.Perfection(J)

run away for a better day

nicremnev @ 2004-07-09T23:58:00

2004-07-10T04:25:30Z

new song? =P<----that is dedicated to stephy and kim for all those dam pictures!

"The Only Thing Perfect"
you are so perfect
you always managed
to make me smile
its funny how
things work out
if you try
if you
try
my life has
changed completely
because of
you
i hope you
understand
and you feel the same
you are everything
and more
you are everything to me
you have my heart
forever
till it is broken
forever

nicremnev @ 2004-07-09T11:25:00

2004-07-09T15:26:16Z

if blood ran black
id bleed shadows